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Friday 30 January 2015

Happy Things...

It's nearing the end of January and I feel as if I have just turned over the last page of a big chapter in my life that was a bit too consuming for my liking. Now, I won't hold my breath that there won't be a sequel that sneaks up on me from time to time, but I have felt a shift and it just seems a bit lighter.

I think this coincides with getting feedback on my university work and feeling really pleased with what was said, and actually shocked/amazed that such nice things were said - it was something I genuinely didn't think was possible ~~(the lecturers can tend to be quite negative, which is a huge understatement).~~

Sometimes all a person needs is a shock to the system to remind them that they are capable of more than they think which can reset a happiness that may not have been present for a while. It's not the healthiest thing to require confirmation of yourself, and I wouldn't say that it something that I crave. But, I am an unassuming person, and it helps to receive a boost from time to time.

So here's hoping that this is a fresh start in mentality and all things good. This has reminded me that I saw a youtuber create a jar of memories that they accumulate over the year of notes to yourself of the things you have done throughout that year, and so at the end of the year you can open the jar and reflect on all the lovely memories. I want to give this a go, because it's a potentially defining year in my life; I will be graduating, and moving into the next phase of adulthood ahhhhhhh! I have no idea where I will be this time next year and this jar will help me remember the steps.

Little steps to keep up the happiness levels (especially when writing your dissertation); think of the little things that make you happy - make a list and learn this about yourself, look at old photos of you and your best friends around the time you first met, do something "selfish" everyday (even if that is just eating a chocolate bar, or watching a tv show). And remember if all else fails, THERE IS NO ANGRY WAY TO SAY BUBBLES...

Enjoy,

Beebie Joe

Tuesday 23 December 2014

Wrapping up 2014...

2014 was a year of huge ups and downs, and whilst it was an overall successful year in respect to internships/friends it was also turbulent with deep sorrow due to the loss of loved ones. Here is the year as told through pictures...

Leaving SH after a 7 month stint...

After being at SH for a decent while, I moved to Sib to learn more about other crafts and skills within fashion. With only one week under my belt I got to experience to amazing manic craziness that is a fashion show...

One of the beautiful models...

Pose...

Great glitter rimmed hat...

One of my fave interns ever, Embob...

The intern life is full of late nights and long slogs, meaning that tired is always a word you can relate to, but where possible I made sure to make the most of being in London with some of my favourite people.

Bergie babe...

The bestie at afternoon tea...

Slurrrrrp...

Even went to see Queen B...

Surfboard

Oh so much crochet...

Still had visits with this handsome pup...

True love...

Then rolled around my birthday...

Celebrating with a spot of Taylor Swift...

22...

Disco eyes...

A cheeky trip to Les Mis...

Testing out a new 'do - looking like hey arnold...

The start of the cricket season...

Family time...

This little man has stolen my heart...

That face...

Spidey spider...

Creepy crawly...

Cutie...

Feeding deer...

Sssssss...

Bonding with my mexican soul sistaaaa...

Taking Trudy to her first afternoon tea...

Delish...

Cheers...

Gal pals...

Part one of the year over and out for now

Enjoy,

Beebie Joe

Sunday 7 December 2014

Christmas necessities...

So, I love anything that is novelty and a bit jazzy - so christmas time and all the fun knitwear and headwear it brings overwhelms me ever so slightly.

After a week of endless late nights and an all-nighter to get a project done and then a bit of bad news - it seems only right to treat myself with a few early christmas presents and festive cheer.

First things first - food. I made sure my fridge was stocked with healthy food to see me through the last week of working my but off to meet yet another deadline - and of course that included stocking up on my favourite thing at the end of a day (red wine).

Next stop - SpaceNK where I made sure that I was decked out with the latest Nars limited edition must haves.

Nars - Digital World Lip Pencil Coffret

Nars - Virtual Domination Cheek Palette

I have definitely been gutted after missing out on special palettes and chChristmasift sets in the past, so I made sure to grab these much coveted things that I had been eyeing up online for a good few weeks. (Vivianna's gift guide was the final straw and I knew I had to get these, whilst dreaming of all the other products she mentioned.)

Then things got festive quickly...

Next - Christmas Pudding Hat

Topshop - Team Rudolf Jumper

Topshop - Sequin Christmas Tree Jumper

Now I am over the moon excited to wear my festive spirit for everyone to see.

Have you got any good christmas buys? Let me know in the comments

BBJ

Your name for the last time...

I have been contemplating revisiting this neglected space of the internet for some time, and with the year drawing to a close, I thought it would be a good chance to get back into it and start the new year with a few posts under my belt.

I fear this is not the happiest of posts, it is about loss. This year has been a difficult year for my loved ones with loss playing an unexpected major role since the summer, and whilst I was not in the immediate circle of those effected, I haven't quite been the same since.

Today the weight of sadness became heavier with the news of another loss close to me and it emphasized the absolute misery that exists in the world. It is so easy to neglect the privileges you have when you seem untouchable from trauma, and that is too true of me. However, as soon as something tragic happens close to home, it is ever too evident that you are not the invisible human you believed yourself to be and that freak accidents and illness can strike any person.

I don't really want to divulge any details with these scattered thoughts and I know this is a ramble, but whenever I am overcome with emotion I feel the need to write.

I am 22 and have found over the last few years that I have gotten to know myself extremely well, I have become to understand the intricacies of my personality, know what makes me happy/angry/sad, am aware of my strengths and weaknesses and have learnt what I value most in others and in the world.

Recently, I have realised one of my major weaknesses is the notion of letting go, whether it be as fickle as throwing away make up that I no longer use, getting rid of momentos, or in the greater sense - still thinking about lost friendships after years have passed, and on topic - not getting over the loss of loved ones.

It may sound as though I am being hard on myself for not getting over the loss of loved ones, yet this summer I was not in the immediate circle of people struck by this loss, yet I still find myself thinking about it and feeling sad not only for myself but mainly for the other people who are effected by this truly tragic thing and how easily it could have been someone in my family in that place instead.

This isn't intended to be a depressing note but it is more an acknowledgement of the two people that have passed away this year that were dear to me. I want to finish with a quote by Banksy that I told my dad this summer...

"they say you die twice. One time when you stop breathing

and a second time, a bit later on, when somebody says your

name for the last time."

Beebie Joe

Tuesday 7 January 2014

Snaps of 2-0-1-3...

I always have the typical thought around the new year that I should make an effort to take more pictures and fail at certain points throughout the year - whilst I admit most of the blame, I also find that around many of my friends the pictures dwindle as they aren't that big on photos so it's not as easy to start bapping out my camera and creating a photoshoot. (This was something I didn't really realise until I met people who are massively into photography and capturing moments, which makes it a lot easier to get on board with)

Weird chat over, here are some of my favourite photos from 2013. I might do a part two because I haven't uploaded a bunch from summer time so stay tuned...